Caffeine Alone Won’t Work

Life has its essentials. To continue one’s existence, those essentials must be had. And if not, by choice or by circumstance, death will and does occur.

By the same token, to fulfill your reason for being on this planet, we have an essentials handbook. Two of those essentials were common themes during today’s living. 1.) Letting others help, even if they come out of no where. 2.) Being humbled by the pain of others.

…look…forget this. I am struggling tonight. I am tired of being tired. I lay in bed and stare at the lights coming through the blinds. I read different Scripture verses and find myself lifted and encouraged, until another blow to the back of the head happens. My body is tired. Shoulders, legs, eyes, lower back, and feet or sore. I keep throwing of the weight of the world and then turn right back around and pick it all back up. What is wrong with me?!

Today, a couple of the kids’ teachers reached out to our family and showed true compassion. I wanted to break down. Friends stepped up and delivered food, took on laundry, and gave words of encouragement. Family stepped up and took care of needs we had. Tonight, I feel like I am being used to prove the Bible to be real and living. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” I am weak so that anything of greatness can ONLY be counted as a win for my God.

Tonight, Liz is still in the hospital. She is having some tests run on her kidney tomorrow. My prayer is no longer one of bring “my” wife home. Tonight, my new prayer is that God would take care of His daughter. 9 days tomorrow. 9!

I am tired of God smackin’ me around with the things I keep telling Him I am not good at. I struggle with getting the kids to do their homework correctly. The constant laundry, vacuuming, dishwasher, cleaning, dressing, dropping off, picking up, job stuff,…all while my wife is sick and no answers to why…It’s like He says, “So what? Do you not trust me? You don’t trust me, do you Donny?” Its time to prove that I do.

So listen, I am not sure, that over the years since the quads were born, if there has been a family that has been more rallied around than mine. To be prayed for this much; to be given this much; to be encouraged this often…we’re winning.

I need to go to bed. I need to rest. I need to be available to God tomorrow. I need to be on the ready. I will be rested up, prayed up, armored up, lifted up, and fired up. I will choose love. Caffeine is a generic supplement for what I am thirsting for.

God………………………………….keep me weak.


One Response to “Caffeine Alone Won’t Work”

  1. Bridget & Bruce McBee Says:

    Liz, you (Donny) and the kids are in our prayers every day. Our hearts are with you. Thank you for wanting Gods will so He gets the glory. We are so very thankful that our God is so big and all powerful and all knowing. He knows where we are, what we are going through and promises to be there with us know matter what. THANK YOU JESUS.

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